i have had in my mind for the past several weeks all these wonderful and different things to post about...but time tends to get away from me faster than i can think. so as part of me trying to find some balance i am just going to start fresh from this moment. hoping to steal some time to write as often as possible. just please bare with me.
we are 4 weeks into our new family. we have been through every emotion known to man and some i never even thought existed. we have are having some amazingly sweet moments. you can read all about our easter vacation with the grandparent's on my mom's blog (or Gigi as the boy's call her) over here at Gigislittlegarden.blogspot.com. sorry but i have to much on my mind to go backwards and remember all that happened. let me just say we had a really awesome time.
we've also encountered some really tough moments. but in those tough moment's we call on God and he provides just what we need. his grace is so sufficient. we are learning to speak truth boldly over and through our household.
in all these sweet and hard moments i am still trying to figure out how to balance being a mom, a wife, and me. i feel like i'm either trying to stay on top of the laundry, cook, stay on top of the dishes, get everyone to all their appointments, spend time with my husband, take quiet time for myself, find some time to catch up with friends, and just keep everyone in the house sane. i don't know how you moms out there do it. if you have any tips i'm all ears. i feel like i need to choose who i want to be and that i can't be all 3. i want my house to be a safe haven for my family. i want my husband to be showered with love and adoration every time he walks in the door. i want my children to be so well behaved that i can take them anywhere i need to go and everything will be ok. the bottom line is that everything just feels out of my control! there i said it. i do like to be in control. i'm usually very good at working hard to get what i want. but since God has rocked my world i'm needing him to rock my heart and mind. i'm needing some balance. i need to give myself freedom. it's all easier said than done. but thankfully i serve a stubborn God who will not give up on me.
time to go pick up the boys from school...