since most of my posts are me pouring out my heart it makes sense to share this with you. this past weekend was a very overwhelming "baby" weekend. just one of those weekends where you see little babies at every turn, everyone is talking about being pregnant or their adoption, and everything else that can be baby related. don't get me wrong. i love being around all the baby stuff but sometimes it just gets overwhelming and i want to SCREAM! brian and i went to a CPR class on saturday along with several other couples that are also adopting. some of them have been waiting about 2 years. i kept looking around the room thinking "we are so much cooler than them." i know that probably is very judgmental of me to think that but that's how i felt. and i hate hearing that people are waiting so long. i believe in the depths of my heart that God will bring our child before Christmas but sometimes i get so discouraged. i have been heavily leaning on the verse "lean not on your own understanding but in all your ways acknowledge Him..." I do not understand all this waiting one bit. but i do know i serve a God who sees the bigger picture. my God knows my heart. my God knows my baby. and my God is big enough to handle all my emotions.
because i work in the music business i listen to music all day long. i heard a song recently off the new britt nicole album called "have your way". it's a pretty awesome song if you haven't heard it. but here is the chorus and the words really spoke to me:
So I'll stop searching for the answers,
I'll stop praying for an escape,
I'll trust you God with where I am,
And believe you will have your way,
Just have your way
you can listen to the song here http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zW6RinFJnOU
here is are call to all the prayer warriors:
PLEASE PRAY WITH US AND BELIEVE WITH US that we will hear from our adoption agency in the next few weeks. that we will meet our future child's birthmother and begin our relationship with her. we are believing that God hears our prayers and will bring our child home soon.